Today was the turning point in a three-day wondering what is wrong with me event. Let’s just call it a funk. First it loomed, then it swarmed, and then landed. I knew it hit hard when I began looking all over the house for a secret stash of Halloween candy. No chocolate to be found, I made an extra pot or two of my favorite green tea and cleaned and straightened a closet. I finally figured it out when I went to my reading pile, took a fresh look at what I’d been consuming, and then I just had to laugh!
An NPR interview promoted A Thousand Lives, by Julia Scheeres, a cheery little book sharing the story of five Peoples Temple members who went to Jonestown. This week marks the 33rd anniversary of that horrible event. That’s certainly sobering.
Then, despite remembering how low I felt after reading Joan Didion’s 2005 autobiographical The Year of Magical Thinking—a hard-hitting chronicle outlining her grief and personal upheaval following her husband’s sudden death, I still purchased and began reading her newest release, Blue Nights, memories of her daughter Quintana’s life and death. You can see where this is going!
Finally, the trifecta of gloom, Walter Isaacson’s 600 page portrait of Steve Jobs. It’s a well-written and very good book, but be prepared for melancholy!
So I admit that I didn’t use the greatest wisdom in my literary lineup. But at least once I realized why I was so gloomy, it was up to me to chart another course! So today I focused on things that made me happy.
If it’s Tuesday it’s Sophia-Karina day! Two little girls who chatter almost non-stop and make me laugh at their funny observations provide an immediate mood boost. They are the proverbial counterweight to gloom!
We started the day watching the squirrels scamper up and down our redwood tree—the special tree birds brought to me years ago! I frequently think about how for years I had wanted a redwood, but couldn’t quite justify the expense of another tree. When I found the sapling hiding in some fern in our side yard I was sure that God hand-(or bird) delivered it as a special gift to me.